Starting Anew
A Personal Journey of Transformation
For many years, I was caught in patterns of trauma, stress, grief, guilt, and regret. These experiences shaped my thoughts, emotions, and actions, creating cycles that felt impossible to break. Despite doing everything I could to move beyond the past, I still found myself stuck, unhappy, and wondering why all my efforts weren’t bringing the changes I longed for.
At the core of this struggle was a profound misunderstanding: I had mistaken my thoughts and conditioning for the truth of who I am. The complex trauma I experienced stemmed fundamentally from this disconnection—from living in ways that went against my own being and how it was wired. My choices, beliefs, and actions were often misaligned with my deeper truth, and asserting that truth required undoing years of ingrained patterns.
For much of my life, I didn’t believe in energies, spirit, or the idea that such things could be experienced. When I began to open to these possibilities, everything began to shift, but not without challenges. My family reacted strongly—some with fear, others telling me I was doing something wrong. Suddenly, I found myself alone, trying to come into alignment with who I was becoming.
Thankfully, I was also surrounded by people who loved me unconditionally. They stood by me regardless of their own beliefs. Over time, even those who doubted my path came to appreciate it. Today, they express gratitude for the depth I can bring to them, and I am equally grateful for the ways they enrich my life.
Lessons From the Path
My experiences have taught me one fundamental truth: we are the creators of our reality. There is a path of light—literal light—and it is the easy path. We don’t have to follow it, but the further we stray from it, the worse we feel, and the more those around us feel it too. This isn’t about perfection; it’s about alignment. When we walk closer to the light, we experience balance, clarity, and a sense of ease in our lives.
One of the most profound lessons I’ve learned is the difference between wanting to change and actively seeking change. It is easy to say we want healing, growth, or transformation, but without action, this desire remains just a thought. True change requires us to step into the process—to make decisions, take risks, and do the work necessary to create a new reality. This is what the elders are saying: that intention without action is not enough.
Elders I have encountered have taught me this with directness. They will listen with compassion and help you work on something, but once the work is done, they expect you to move forward. Revisiting the same issues without taking active steps wastes time and life force energy—not just their own, but yours as well. Their firmness is not unkind; it is rooted in the recognition that life is precious, and we must use our time wisely.
This can feel harsh, but it stems from a deep need for honesty. If you say you want something and do not seek it, you are deceiving yourself. Elders have no tolerance for self-deception because it holds us back from the very growth we claim to want. I have learned that self-deception is a truth we must all confront with compassion. The more we see it within ourselves, the more choices we have to live honestly and align with what truly matters.
The Awakening
When I was 27, my awakening began. I had nothing to lose. The need to change became so apparent it felt as though my life depended on it. If I didn’t act, I feared I might die, and this realisation terrified me. I knew I had to do something, though I didn’t yet fully understand why.
Looking back, I see that this was my turning point. For years, I committed myself to self-growth, step by step, experience by experience. I persisted, determined to find the truth, whatever it was, until I could feel it and know it deeply. It wasn’t until I was 35 that I began to see the results of that effort. By then, I had spent years engaging in intentional, committed growth, and my life began to manifest differently. I understood the path I had been walking and the reasons for the challenges along the way.
It’s Worth It
This journey has shown me the sacredness of life. When we align with what we truly want—whether it’s healing, connection, or truth—we are met with incredible depth and possibility. We are all worth the effort it takes to live authentically. The path may not always be easy, but it is always worth it.
Every technique, writing, further reading, and video that I recommend in this course has been a part of my own journey. These resources are not abstract ideas or distant theories; they are tools I have used, explored, and saved for others who are ready to embark on their own path of transformation. They have supported me in finding clarity, alignment, and truth, and I share them here with the hope that they may inspire and guide you as well.
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